It’s been just over two weeks since I was the last of my roommates to check out of the Sheraton and head home from #BlogHer13, and I haven’t stopped missing them.
My BlogHer sisters.
They have posted recaps already. Heart-warming, brilliant and hilarious – just like the women that wrote them. I’m still in awe that these are my friends and that I am a part of this community. Somedays, I feel like an imposter in this life and this world. I’m waiting for some one to jump through my computer screen and yell “FAKER – You don’t belong!”.
But in searching for my takeaway from #BlogHer13 and this life that I have created for myself, it’s that I do belong here. I fit. For the first time in my life, I don’t feel like an outsider on some one else’s path, trying to get someone or something to notice me. I am creating my own path, brick by brick, in this amazing community that I love. This is me – take me or leave me. If you don’t like who I am or what I have to say, feel free to unfriend or unfollow. I won’t mind, and I won’t take it personally. I’d like it if you walked with me in my journey, being happy for me that I’ve found a path and people who fulfill a creative part of my soul that I never knew existed. But I’m not seeking your approval, and I won’t stand by and let you mock me for it. I did that when I was younger, the pull of wanting to be a part of the “in crowd” was stronger than any worth I placed on myself. I’ve changed that. Grown through that. This community has allowed me to flourish and reminded me that my words have value. That I have value.
I am thrilled to have met some fabulous women at BlogHer that I am looking forward to keeping in touch with. They are strong, powerful, brave and amazing and I can’t wait to see what comes next from them.
I am grateful that I was able to spend time with friends I don’t see very often, either because of geography or the time constraints of jobs and motherhood. It was awesome to see their faces every day, give and receive hugs, and know that I was in the presence of amazing women that I admire so much.
Thank you Kari, Shannon, Marianne, Jeanette and Danielle for unofficially appointing me the leader of our “merry band of misfits” as we called ourselves. Thank you for letting me attempt to organize and spreadsheet us to death in preparation for an experience that we were all a little terrified of for different reason. Thank you for putting enough faith in me that I could not only do it, but that I wouldn’t make a complete mess of things. Thank you for laughing and crying with me, enjoying all of our good fortunes and wonderful experiences from the week. I will cherish our inside jokes and “what happens at BlogHer, stays at BlogHer” pictures forever.
Thank you for having my back.
To see Kari’s BlogHer recap (which includes most of MY pictures – LOL), check out “For Crap Sake Pull Your Dress Up – How I Survive BlogHer 13” on her blog, A Grace Full Life